i swear that i can feel you creeping underneath my skin.

Okay, I never wanted to admit this, but the truth is that I'm scared. I'm so scared that even my fear frightens me more. I said I couldn't care less, I said it doesn't matter, when honestly everything matters. Yes, I mind about bad results. I want need to success well. Don't let scare to take control over your life - I know that life still continues to move on and good things happens, regardless of your fear. But I should've known as well that fear always comes with a reason, and the important thing is that I control that reason all the time, every minute of my life. I should've controlled it more carefully. 

i wear your old clothes, your polo sweater.

One of the million reasons. 
I miss you. 

i hate it when you stare.

"I believe in Christianity as I believe the sun has risen. Not because I see it, but because by it I see everything else." (C.S.Lewis)

bite your lips together, take the same look one more time.

This weekend, I saw the most beautiful, hottest creature of woman kind I have ever seen above Earth. In real life, I even talked to her. Don't tell. It's a secret. 

birch branch quietly beats the window, is wind the one who shouts, or is it someone else.

There are certain things that I just can't lose, that I can't really even define. You are definitely one of them. Would you be worth a kiss? I would love to give a shot. 



I AM happy, what did you think? I am HAPPY, what did you think? 

you had my heart, at least for the most part.

Going with the flow, catching the flight you were never supposed to enter, and swinging like a child - and it is as if your heart was in pieces and I had to solve the puzzle. 

smiling right from ear to ear.

I love it, when you turn your back and it makes me want you even more. 

we gotta move on dear, escape from this afterlife.

This summer, I'll play guitar.
I'll call a friend instead of waiting for her/him to call.
I'll go and talk to a stranger who seems nice.
I'll picnic a lot.
I'll take pictures of all the important moments.
I'll sing in front of people.
I'll grow out of this fear.

i know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.

Tomorrow is today. 

change the voices in your head, make them like you instead.

you're the reason i come home.

You are more than the words you say or the lyrics you write. You are determined and seen by the things that you talk about and say out loud, but something inside might unhinge your heart, your soul and your mind. You are the perfect doll to somebody, you are perfection that does not demand perfect personality, perfect appearance or perfect words but demands a perfect heart. 

To make a difference today in the attitude. To change the way you see everyone else, and most of all, the way you see yourself - you are so much more. Wear the words as if they were the most expensive jewellery you own. Tie yourself into the conversations you have and be fascinated by the way they all flow in different ways. Be one with your inner and outer bodies and souls, and be that kind of a person, who makes you happy. They deserve it as well as you do, like nature deserves some water after a long summer swelter. 

and i will rise when he calls my name.

I don't usually think of death, but when my day - hopefully after a long long time - comes, I want that:
1. you eat chocolate cake for my memory.
2. you play Chris Tomlin's I Will Rise.
3. you bring roses and forget about other flowers.
4. you "smile, even if it's a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile".
5. you believe I'm the angel above you all.


Cliché? Yes.

thundering circumstances beyond our control rumble in.

Always remember that music will never let you down: you're not going to disappoint if you choose music. Music is trying and they say you're brave if you try, it makes you creative. You don't have enemies when you have music, you don't have inabilities and you have no dangers. All your soul needs is a tiny bit of a music (or more) everyday, to heal it and to heal your heart, to make you feel like you're homesick for something you never had, and never will have - but trust me, that feeling is a worth getting. 

the tragedies of chemistry, people dream of what you and me have found.

[Tú me haces feliz cuando estás aquí. Actualmente, deseria que estuvieras aquí todo el tiempo conmigo. Porque sin nuestra amistad, mi mundo sería un desierto.]


I don't cry because I'm sad, desperate or hopeless. I don't cry because you're gone, because many of you are gone, or because I think you couldn't have eternal lives. No, I don't cry because of that. I cry for the world that looks so beautiful in the sunrise, with the mist above lakes and the orange sun covering your view from the car window. I cry because you're all together as angels, flying up there in Heaven and we're stuck in the ground. I cry because you appear perfect to me - because my soul and my heart tell me to stop crying for sad things and encourage me to be happy of what I've got. Because life's too beautiful to be wasted.


And because I've got plenty.


I think I'm the luckiest person in the world, when I start crying and you are there crying with me. And I'd just like to say / I thank God that you're here with me. (Ron Pope)



Personally I don't think that happiness demands anything more than that.

life is for the living, the forgiven and for leaving town alive.

I'm reading this book called Juliet and I feel it everywhere inside of me, I feel hatred (which is truly the passion that unhinges my soul), I feel love, and I love that feeling. That feeling of feeling everything inside, that feeling of getting new emotions by living someone else's life for a while - but just for a while. 


Some of them you graduate tomorrow, next week or in August. Graduated yesterday, today, last week. Graduation is not the end, it is the beginning - that's what everyone says, and it surely is a cliché. You should be happy, smile so that it soon hurts your lips but you can't stop it; you can't because you don't want to, because you keep telling that to yourself or because the environment makes you smile, it doesn't matter what reason you have. Smile can do it all: it can destroy a person, it can change a life, really, it has the power. 


You will never learn how to fly, if you don't love the sky, love the heaven - that's what angels said, in Juliet. Maybe if we stopped being selfish and forgetting who we want to be just for a while, we could love everyone else the way they are. We should. But before we can love anyone else, we have to learn how to love ourselves, and it is a mission of a lifetime. Graduation proves that we have learnt something theoretically very important, but that knowledge doesn't help us if we cannot control our lives in practice. Post-graduation is the period of time, when you will learn how to live. If you have the will to live. Maybe if you smiled a little bit, maybe it is there somewhere, maybe it has been there all the time. 


And since you started smiling, why would you stop? It makes you feel good, and certainly demands less energy than sulking. Sometimes you hurt yourself more than anyone could ever hurt you, only for keeping your feelings hidden. Romeo and Juliet is everlasting, but this moment is not.