my heart is open to the promise of a lifetime.

It's easier to stand on the edge waiting for your falling, than saving you. Easier to make promises than to keep them. Easier to lie than to tell the truth that hurts. Easier to live and suffer than to love passionately without any regrets, any limits, without expectations, hopes or compromises.


Your walls are still in a rather upright position, strongly. As you imagine them falling apart, falling above you, suffocating you and eventually killing you, you are actually killing yourself inside. Caused by various different reasons, your depression is not healthy and it is anything but straight forward.


Smile.
Make a change.
Don't expect anything so that you will not disappoint. Don't think that other people expect something they actually do not and set your goals too high.
Be brave, take risks but avoid conflicts, win people's trust, create tied friendships, secure the permanence of your wallet's content.
Walk alone outside and scream, cry, jump, run as fast as you can, be that teenage girl you have met in a rock concert wining about her miserable life cursing everyone who she saw.
Drink hot chocolate and read a book, forget your life, eventually watch Titanic or some equally sad movie so that you see that your life is not necessarily SO bad.





You love yourself.  I love you. You love people and they will accept you the way you are. Keep your heart open and be wise listening to your emotions, believe, trust and dream. You will survive. You know, it is easier to relax than to keep sulking. Goodnight!