i want a hope that burns like a fire in me / the falling rain can bring a change.

Boats symbolize change. Boats, sea and the endlessness of them both together remind me of the journey that will change everything. Now or in the eternity, I don't really care. I'm waiting for it, but more than that, I want to live this moment, feel every raindrop on my skin. Rain feels good. It is pure and it is special, it has some qualities that make even city feel like countryside - although sometimes you wish you had taken an umbrella with you when it's becomes stormy. Today it was, saw lightnings in my mirror coming from outside and a beautiful, mysterious weather with noisy thunder. As if the change comes. Sneaking at first and then hitting you hard. 


There is this beauty in rain, like the child's beauty in the following picture. How can someone look so beautiful, slightly hurt, but extremely cute? 



Regardless of the last two years, I'm very happy of the place where I am standing right now. I feel like that girl, maybe a bit thoughtful, sometimes feeling blue, but still being happy inside. Yellow is the color for happiness. Color yourself. Make a change. You are beautiful and special, just like sun and rain at the same time (and someone smart once said that life is like a rainbow, you need both sun and rain to make its colors appear). I am ready to begin, I am ready to continue. I am ready to be here and there, at the same time, make my dreams come true, carry out my hundred things, start playing piano again, feel the music, feel everything more emotionally than before, feel with heart, feel with soul, feel con todo mi cuerpo, be happy. Because inside that little person says that it's the bloody damn time - it has been the time for quite a long time already. 


And may you receive this Irish blessing: “May you always have walls for the winds, a roof for the rain, tea beside the fire, laughter to cheer you, those you love near you and all your heart might desire.”