all we can do is keep breathing now.

I don't want to sit in front of this bloody damn computer, I want to go outside, and dance, and jump, and spin around. I want to meet people that I don't know, and people that I love. I want to bike until all I can see is a forest, and a lake, and go swimming with my best friend. I want to picnic, as if I had no hurry to go anywhere. I want to stay up so late that I can see the sunrise, and watch it until the morning turns into afternoon. I want to do the things I missed last year and the year before that, just because I claimed to be too busy, or because I did other things that didn't make me so happy, or because I felt like I was in agony. I had that post-agony period yesterday, it felt like everything's over, but it was so strange. I couldn't really describe the feeling with words. Now, all I want to do is to be happy, to show people how happy I am and to make that fucking new start. Because I'd love a fresh start. And I will. 


Let's just begin breathing slowly in and out. Repeat. Then I think I'll go and make my dreams come true (but I have to read the list before I remember.).